Thursday, February 26, 2004
only one more final to take... and i'm so luck that it's at 2:45 pm on friday.... yeah.. right....
i was talking to lauren today, and we were discussing out majors and how unhappy we have been. I've been considering changing my major. Not because i hate my major, but mostly because i'm not passionate about it. I don't get up in the morning and scream, i love strength of materials or i can't wait to study fluids. I much prefer to be up in the industrial design department developing ideas, or idk, bumming around doing an easy liberal arts major.
So iwas looking at Colgate University, and i was reading down the different majors they had. I was intersted in Chemistry, and maybe something a little bit more techie... but the whole idea of taking, chem 1, chem 2, chem this chem that... would have driven me insane!! i'm sure everything is interesting in its own right, but jesus. Then looking at all the other majors, nothing seemed like i would like spending the rest of my life doing.
Now getting back to Industrial Design, i would love to be in that major, but i honestly believe that i would not make a good living off of it. I've never been the best artist, and i really can't think of ultra fabulous ideas. I think that i would have to become a serious drug addict to do that.
So for lack of better choices and talent, i am staying with my mech e tech major. It's not too bad, and i can do whatever i want with that degree...
so i guess me being happy in life is up to me...
Monday, February 23, 2004
"The woods are lovely, dark, and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep
And miles to go before I sleep..."
- Robert Frost
This poem really makes me think about the time i have spent here at RIT. The journey that we are living through is so wonderful in expriences, friends we make, things we see and do, and the lessons that we learn. As we travel on this journey, there are things that we are obligated to do in life. There are things that must be done, and it seems that there too much to do in the little time that we are given here on earth. To do all that you can do, sleep is the one thing that we will never seem to be able to do. Maybe that is why it seems that it is only in death we can truly rest in peace.
one final down.. i screwed up a bit on it.. idk, i feel too good about it, so that is probably a bad thing.. hahah i probably bombed it really bad!!
i still have to finish my research project, essay test #3, and a ton of strength of materials studying to do. thank god that after tuesday all i have to focus on is studying for physics.. which is what i need to study the most for... sigh... almost done
Sunday, February 22, 2004
I'm sitting here by my window smelling the fresh air
i think of the sunshine in my eys, face and hair
the breeze is so warm
and i could have swarn
that it was spring here in town
but oh no it became known
that winter was still around but preaty
in this grand ole' brick city
Friday, February 20, 2004
So today was the last day of classes. I'm all done..... yeah that was a lie, i'm not. I'm so damn tired but i feel bad about going to bed. I don't know... this quarter was just.... i don't know
my brain has stoped working
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
the mornings are early,
the nights are late,
the days are long,
and I take short breaks,
wanna stab myself
in the eye with a pen,
cuz thats how it is
when you're in WEEK TEN!
-Carson
so after talking with a dear friend of mine, i realize that i need more fun in my life. I need to have crazy adventures and do crazy things..... maybe in the spring??
Saturday, February 14, 2004
only two more weeks of school....i think i can survive....
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
I always see this little old man on campus. He walks really slow, has a cane, and wears an old man hat. He carries this bag, usually a dog food bad or a trash bag and walks through the academic buildings. Shuffling through the long halls, he drags these bags behind him, because he is too weak to carry their total weight. He drags these bags to all the recylcing bins that are scattered around campus and picks out all the cans and bottles. Where ever i see this old man, my heart falls to pieces. I always wish that i had some money to give him, but never carry it with me so that i don't insult him. But i always think... where is his family? why is he doing this? what has happened in his life so that he has come to this? I hold back the tears and walk to class... this poor little old man in the halls.
so i was looking around my room this morning and i noticed this quote at the bottom of one of my posters. I got this poster from one of the job fairs from a printing company. It's a photograph of part of a building, most likely the ceiling. The quote was "structure is the giver of light" (author unknown).
I began thinking about this. What did it mean? Was it just some corney civil joke?
Then it hit me. It just doesn't relate to building and trausses. I've always beleived that obstacles and limits fostered the best creativity. The structure of life, makes one shine....
ok this is a very corney entry, but it truley relates to what is going on in my life, what has gone on and what is going to happen. There are times when you have no choice in your path of life and with that lack of choice is where you become true to yourself. Where you know what you are capable of.
What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger
just be optimistic
Sunday, February 08, 2004
This week.. well it was better than last week for the most part. Relaxed and chill. The quarter is almost over, and i can't be any more happy. Idk what the hell happened but nothing went right it seems, it just beat me up and spit me out. Idk how spring will go, i just hope that it is better than winter.
It's so wierd how your life can change so quickly. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger....
Monday, February 02, 2004
Yesterday was the Super Bowl.. and it kicked ass!!
now i'm not a huge fan of football or watching football, i didn't even know who was up to play intill a couple weeks ago. But this game kicked ass. Pathers and Patriots tied till the last minute, when the Patriots made a feild goal with 8 seconds on the clock, winning the super bowl. It was so intense. The half time show had it's moments too. Janet Jackson and her costume. Now what i want to know is how does Cameron Diaz fell about Justin ripping off Janet's clothes... with their whole history and all. I had fun though hanging with my brothers watching the game.
This morning i got to register for spring.. where does the time go, where does it go
